Showing posts with label TTC #1. Show all posts
Showing posts with label TTC #1. Show all posts

Tuesday, 14 February 2012

Panic Over: For Now...


Phew! I can breathe again...

This morning I watched a new TTC vlog posted by someone that I subscribe to. It was titled something like 'why I hate digital tests'. The title puzzled me as I LOVE digital tests - they give you a clear answer: Pregnant or Not Pregnant. To make matters worse, the vlog was about my favourite brand: ClearBlue - even more puzzled...until I had finished watching.

This particular lady, like me, had an ectopic pregnancy last year. At the beginning of this year she was convinced that she was pregnant as she was experience many of the symptoms she had felt in her previous pregnancy. So she took a test; a ClearBlue Digital. 'Pregnant'. Obviously she was overjoyed, told her partner and booked in to have her beta levels checked. Her beta levels came back at 0. ?????
A week later, she took another test and again it came back as 'Pregnant'. She showed this to her Dr but yet again her beta came back at 0. She had gotten TWO false positives from her HPTs.

After watching this I decided to research it - by research I clearly mean I asked Google. I was shocked by how many other people had experienced the same! I was SO worried as I had gotten my positive from the brand that everyone was now saying not to trust.

Fortunately for me there is a Pregnancy Crisis Centre in the same block that I work in that my friend heads up. She gave me a free test, just a cheapy one.



Positive.

Praise the Lordy Lord!!



My heart really goes out to the people that receive false positives though - especially after trying for so long and even more so after experiencing a loss. To be given false hope; a false joy - that's not fair. Apparantly, these digital tests pick up all sorts of hormones during ovualtion and even around AF which can potentially result in these false positives. Shocking really.

Wednesday, 8 February 2012

Best Birthday Present EVER!

Today:
Is my birthday!!
I'm officially 23 years old
I'm off work to celebrate the day with hubby!
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WE ONLY WENT AND GOT OUR BFP!!!! Oh my life...my hands are shaking.

I'm so so happy right now, never in a million years did I think, after 14 months TTC and an ectopic pregnancy, that the first cycle since our forced break would result in the news we've been praying so hard for.

Wow.
Overwhelmed would be an understatment right now, for sure.

I just really need to say; I know that sometimes reading these announcements can make some people's hearts sink - just a little bit. I know mine used to. And I totally understand why. And I honestly am praying for those that I have connected with that your time will come - SOON!! Love you guys - thank you so much for the support you have given me in such a short space of time.

Now to open the rest of my presents....!!

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

10dpo come with a feeling of: Utter Impatience!



Yesterday kick started a much needed week off work with hubby. And what a delightful start it was: shopping spree! New clothes, galore! It was the first thing that has taken my mind off this bloomin' 2WW - literally, my mind feels like it has just about drowned in baby thoughts.

But that was yesterday.

Today, I have been a complete couch potato - I've spent the day on youtube watching TTC/pregnancy vlogs, on google researching early symptoms and ALL DAY trying to supress the urge to take a test - arrrrggghhh! I just NEED to know; if I'm pregant, FAB! If not, I'm inviting AF for dinner to officially get the next cycle rolling. Am I turning into a crazy woman? I definately wasn't this obsessed for the first 12 months TTC...

I guess my plan is to hold out 'til 12dpo - although I don't really know why I have decided that 12dpo is a 'sensible' test day. Why not 10/11/13/14/15dpo??

Oh, one more thing that I'm struggling with: resisting the urge to make baby buys. Maybe I should just buy one thing and that will make me feel better...? Either that or it will spark a manic baby shopping spree and I'll be drowning in both my baby thoughts AND actual baby stuff. Hmm.

TTC-ing; not an easy ride sometimes is it?

Lovage x

Monday, 30 January 2012

2WW - I really haven't missed you....

According to Fertility Friend, I am officially in the midst of my first 2WW since my ectopic pregnancy - scary!

Time has absolutly flown by this past 3 months, which really has been a blessing. I remember feeling so put down when we were forced to take a 3 month break from TTC but it has given me time to reign my emotions in and get ready to hit this ball out of the park!

As previous blogs have stated, this is my first cycle using Fertility Friend - I guess I'm still a little cautious to trust it entirely, after all - could it really have sussed out my cycle before even I have?!

But, if I am to trust it - today is 3dpo. 3 days in to a loooong 2 weeks. I get insanely impatient.

I'm a bit gutted that we failed to 'BD' the day before the big O - seeing that has made me feel a little deflated. But ho-hum, there's always next cycle...

Saturday, 28 January 2012

Am I weird...

...for getting a little bit excited over EWCM...

haha!